I am so irritated right now... if everytime someone tries to talk to you and you keeo brushing them off.. the least you could do is like tell them when you are going to sleep so that they can come to goodnight and talk about some stuf... not just suddenly sleep without saying anything and you have to satnd like a stupid fool!!! OK i know i sound contradicting, but its so damn irritating... AARRRGGGHH!!! Fuck la!! you make me so angry and sad i just feel like killing myself.....And its so diffcult to get back to the normal track when you try so hard not to digress.... its saddening to see how one's life can change because of this one person... as much as i love you there are still somethings which i can't stand the way you do... Nevertheless i still love you and whish the best...

English test tomorrow... hope to feel normal again by tomorrow... hard to go back.. Can't let go... AHHHHH!!!! I;m just slipping away...just hate it!!